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| hehehe...i'm in love!! his name is tim. he is 21, in the navy, and hes cute....o and great in....nevermind...and he loves me!! my parents like him....i love him...my friends like him...i love him...wut more can i say? | | |
| ok...so like apparently my myspace isnt working....darn!! but yeah...i
am back in hawaii. yay. give me a call.....5546420....if u want to do
something!!
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| i am only 19....can this really b happening? but something is different
about u...something is different about us. can it b true? after all
this time.....after everything we have gone thru....that we could still
find each other? "we" had just begun.....but yet...it feels so right. u
complete me and i complete u. we r meant to b. all day i thought about
u.....i couldnt get u out of my mind. and then....u asked me. i didnt
know wut to say. nothing would come out. u r so far away. and all i
want is to b by ur side. i love u.
in a year and a
half....everything will b different. we'll make our vows. together
we'll b together forever. i love u with all my heart. | | |
| why is it when we think that we are getting better...it turns out that we have fallen deeper down the spirial abyss we call life. why is it we think that something is finally behind us.....but deep down....we know different. we put it behind us....but yet....when the wind blows...the cold air freezes our sense of reality....and we remember how alone we really are. the memories of what was...haunts our every thought to the point when everything around us is a consistant reminder of the past. tears begin to flow from our eyes. not knowing why....we try to turn to what comforts us the most.....then we realize what makes us happy is the exact thing that is causing the tears. the dark of the night falls upon the sky so suddenly as we realize that another day is over. we wonder what we have done lately to make a difference in life. nothing comes to mind. are we really as good as we think? is life really supposed to be this way? we lay our head down to sleep each night knowing and believing that in just a few hours our day will begin once again....but what if it doesn't? we live our lives day by day....trying to plan for the future....but in this cruel world of reality...anything and everything happens...good or bad. we believe that we are bound to one dynasty...one life. but all considered....if our dynasty is preset...isn't possible to arrive at the same ending point through a different path? we should be living for the now. our future happens when we are too busy planning for it. and before we know it...our future becomes our past....and then we are gone. living for the day...living for now is something that very few think about. we believe that by planning everything out....by doing everything that is expected of us.....everything will go the way as planned. but this is never what happens....in any asspect. we believe that love is something that is tangable. but it isn't. we believe that love is something that we can control and predict. but no. we believe that love only has one meaning and one divine course. but that isn't true either. love and happiness are the two most ambiguous words in modern language. we search all of our lives for true love and happiness....but the reality that no one sees...is that love and happiness cannot be found in the world around us....but marely stashed away in a hidden place within ourselves. a place where a part of us still believes that the world is good...that people are good. it seems like all we think about in love and happiness....as we get older....we tell ourselves that if we don't find it soon...we will die a lonely death. but is this really true? we find that what makes us content is the familiar things that life bring us in our everyday routine...in other words...what we find comfortable. we....as a world...play it safe when it comes to matters of our heart. is our heart as really as fragile as it seems....and we make it seem....or can it handle a lot more than we think it can? collectively....we fear falling in love. but is falling in love what we really fear? being in love is a great and glorious feeling that will take us to our limits...and it enables us to take the step across the line of sensibility and rational thought...into a state of ecstasy. but what we really fear is something much more powerful....getting our heart broken. we believe that the most painful asspect of life is a broken heart. this fear we have....prevents us from being who we really are.....prevents us from living life. we shelter ourselves so much....that we believe that if we don't fall in love...we will not feel the pain of a heartbreak. but not knowing whether or not it was possible to be with the certain someone......could hurt us a lot more. why is it we do what we do? we are not ourselves....but yet we expect everyone else to be. we expect nothing but the best from others....why can't we expect the best from ourselves? why is it when we think that we are getting better...it turns out that we have fallen deeper down the spirial abyss we call life. why is it we think that something is finally behind us.....but deep down....we know different. we put it behind us....but yet....when the wind blows...the cold air freezes our sense of reality....and we remember how alone we really are. the memories of what was...haunts our every thought to the point when everything around us is a consistant reminder of the past. tears begin to flow from our eyes. not knowing why....we try to turn to what comforts us the most.....then we realize what makes us happy is the exact thing that is causing the tears. the dark of the night falls upon the sky so suddenly as we realize that another day is over. we wonder what we have done lately to make a difference in life. nothing comes to mind. are we really as good as we think? is life really supposed to be this way? we lay our head down to sleep each night knowing and believing that in just a few hours our day will begin once again....but what if it doesn't? we live our lives day by day....trying to plan for the future....but in this cruel world of reality...anything and everything happens...good or bad. we believe that we are bound to one dynasty...one life. but all considered....if our dynasty is preset...isn't possible to arrive at the same ending point through a different path? we should be living for the now. our future happens when we are too busy planning for it. and before we know it...our future becomes our past....and then we are gone. living for the day...living for now is something that very few think about. we believe that by planning everything out....by doing everything that is expected of us.....everything will go the way as planned. but this is never what happens....in any asspect. we believe that love is something that is tangable. but it isn't. we believe that love is something that we can control and predict. but no. we believe that love only has one meaning and one divine course. but that isn't true either. love and happiness are the two most ambiguous words in modern language. we search all of our lives for true love and happiness....but the reality that no one sees...is that love and happiness cannot be found in the world around us....but marely stashed away in a hidden place within ourselves. a place where a part of us still believes that the world is good...that people are good. it seems like all we think about in love and happiness....as we get older....we tell ourselves that if we don't find it soon...we will die a lonely death. but is this really true? we find that what makes us content is the familiar things that life bring us in our everyday routine...in other words...what we find comfortable. we....as a world...play it safe when it comes to matters of our heart. is our heart as really as fragile as it seems....and we make it seem....or can it handle a lot more than we think it can? collectively....we fear falling in love. but is falling in love what we really fear? being in love is a great and glorious feeling that will take us to our limits...and it enables us to take the step across the line of sensibility and rational thought...into a state of ecstasy. but what we really fear is something much more powerful....getting our heart broken. we believe that the most painful asspect of life is a broken heart. this fear we have....prevents us from being who we really are.....prevents us from living life. we shelter ourselves so much....that we believe that if we don't fall in love...we will not feel the pain of a heartbreak. but not knowing whether or not it was possible to be with the certain someone......could hurt us a lot more. why is it we do what we do? we are not ourselves....but yet we expect everyone else to be. we expect nothing but the best from others....why can't we expect the best from ourselves? | | |
| just to let everyone know...that if my page looks like the coding is
wrong...it isnt...well actually a little...it is made from Internet
Exporer Browser only. sorry i know it is kind of an inconvinice....i
have firefox too....so im sorry.
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